Bitter sweet

Glad that she is back home already. I wanted to call and talk to her but my phone is down with low batt. When I got home, she is already preparing to sleep. She said she is letting her mind taking over her heart, so what exactly does her heart want to do? Right now my heart and mind have the same thing in common which is to love and protect her. I am not going to hurt her anymore. But I know she is protecting herself and right now she is not much better. I hope she will tell me things about her. I don't wish to imagine too much about what actually happened in Bintan. I hope nothing happen. I hope he did not do anything to move her or what. I wish to go into her heart and ask her what does she actually wants.

It is so torturing.